Twilight zone

The same friend who I was scared might be getting ready for a "Secret"- laden intervention, has just been to see a channeler. That's some kind of a psychic for you not in the know. I'm not sure what to make of that... But the visionboards, universe boxes and the like really seem to be doing the trick for her. Perhaps I, too, should give it a try? After all, terrestrial solutions have been tried and tested and only have given me huge hangovers and vicious Visa bills...

Part of me tells me to steer clear as I'm fairly sure it's not very kosher. Part of me is curious (even remembering what happened to the cat...) But what would it reveal? That I'm already in my 15th life and still don't know any better? That I will meet a tall, dark, handsome stranger? I already have! Well, someone who was tall, dark and handsome 20 years ago, anyway...


Is it just the fear of letting go? Or the fear of unknown? I believe that we get one life at the end of which we'll, somewhat inevitably, die. But I've studied religions and the belief in reincarnation is at the very core of say, Hinduism. In Israel I've also  encountered Druzes whose religion also openly embraces the same idea. Can it then be limited to those people? I die (alone, miserable and surrounded by cats) thinking bitterly "so, this was it then" and they go on having more reruns than Seinfeld? 


I'm not sure the idea of having a stranger put me to sleep to tell me about my past lives (and inevitably, mistakes) is very comforting.  But my reluctance doesn't mean it couldn't be true. It's like platform shoes or mixing pink with orange. I personally might not believe in those, but it doesn't mean they're not happening.


I know that now more than ever I should focus on myself and my personal growth. Evolving and improving and all that. The whole twilight zone is just another frontier I'm not quite willing to cross... Not yet, anyway.