Thanks but no thanks

I finally had a job interview. It'd taken me months to land this one so I knew I couldn't afford to cock it up. 

I got a call in the morning scheduling the interview only 5 hours later. But I felt confident. The job was good, one I knew I was qualified for. And the salary... was more I ever though I'd make. 

Even the interview went well, though it was over very swiftly. They didn't really even ask many questions. But still I felt confident and knew I'd come across as a very capable candidate. They even told me so. Eventually I was told that the decision would be made in the next 2 days and that it would be a choice between me and an ex-intern of theirs. 

Well, the call came. I didn't get the job. I did well, though,  they said, and recommended "I should definitely keep an eye on their jobs as my background is more than ideal". The things is, I have. This is the 5th job I've applied there in the past month! They also said I should feel very pleased with myself as they rarely interview anyone from outside the agency. Oh yes I'm happy. My cheeks are hurting form all this smiling, I'm that %#*!n happy. And then came the final blow. "Perhaps I'd be interested in doing an unpaid internship instead?"

Would I? WOULD I BOLLOCKS. 

I'm so sick of hearing all this encouraging things being said about me. So sick of hearing how I have all the right qualities and skills and background when they're only wanted as long as no-one has to pay for them! 

Oh and that person who did get the job? Not just an intern, but someone who'd been doing the very job for a year and a half in the past already. 

All the jobs available out there are fixed-term contracts, projects or maternity leave substitutes. No job security, no guarantees. What kind of a future is that?

Fuck this. I've been told it might be time for me to start looking into a plan B. Only I haven't got one. Would I be willing to relocate? To an international war zone? Yes. domestically? Erm, no. I live in the capital. Anything outside it simply isn't worth the leap. Change of career? WHAT CAREER? I've been whoring in these unpaid internships for a year and a half now without any career to come out of those!

I have another interview soon for another, year-long-project. Fingers crossed. I can't afford not to get this one. 

And as for my plan B then? Marry rich. Yes, all the feminists out there, keep on burning those bras. I'm selling out. I'm done.